February 2012
13 posts
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lonelilygirl:
happiness.
what a word.
what an idea.
i never feel it.
i may experience it for a moment, but that is all.
that is all.
lonelilygirl:
if you could read my mind, you would be scared as all hell.
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BPD sometimes makes things hard
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I can't even begin to understand how hard it must...
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I can't help the fact that I'm completely...
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I AM NOT A GOOD PERSON
ourelectronicsubculture:
I AM NOT AN AMAZING PERSON
I AM NOT A TRUSTWORTHY PERSON
I AM NOT ANYTHING.
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hyperphagia:
Childhood trauma (in the form of abuse/neglect) and its aftereffects can be chronic and enduring; it can stunt people both physically and mentally and completely arrest psychosocialdevelopment. It is disabling in that it causes people to become disconnected from themselves and from the world, leaving them unable to form and sustain a coherent sense of self. Trauma victims tend to...
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le-traumatisme:
Anxious, trying to keep busy, busy myself, busy my mind, think about the container, the container you put it all in, and then you close the lid and put it back up on the shelf. There it is, the container, you can see it, you can visualize it sitting there, existing, but you can’t see in, you only see thick walls. You know what’s inside but you aren’t thinking about that,...
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whiteasacorpse:
I’m tired of people thinking the only way you can have PTSD is if you’re a veteran.
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Specturm of beauty
szenzie:
I posted this on my favorite trans support site earlier today. Thought it was nice but there aren’t as many people there who identify as queer in addition to trans.
I can’t stand how I’m always attacked about my gender expression. With my family it’s constantly been questioning my gender identity due to the fact that I fit in well as a guy. I am 100% rational about this and know...
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to—wonderland:
I wish I was a mermaid. So then I could swim far, far away and never come back.
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January 2012
109 posts
I'm Frankenstein's monster.
imyourlittleharlet:
My creator hates me.
People run away by my hideous appearance (IE: the words that spew from my mouth)
No one can stick around very long.
Therefore, I have demons that haunt me. I will forever walk this Earth alone and in utter pain. For the hands that made me have cursed me. Whether it be a bearded man in the sky, or a devil below, or the innerworkings of another galaxy....
painisdarkness:
I can’t take feeling like this any longer, why can’t I just feel….. stable for once. I hate the constant ‘switching’ of feeling absolutely nothing to everything little thing becoming too overwhelming.
I hate having BPD
I think I'm an alien...
natalieburiedbeneath:
When I look around at people I always wonder why I’m not like them. I can never really relate to anyone in anyway. The worst part is that I can’t even pretend to be like them. I try so hard but it just doesn’t happen. My human disguise fucking sucks. Something always gives me away. Some of the most “normal” things that people do I can’t do or even imagine myself doing. I...
Lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely.
klyntaime:
The joys of being a loner that no one understands or wants to be around… I just want someone to come hold me, stroke me face, and tell me it’s going to be okay.
Mixed episodes are.... complicated.
lil-neko:
But I was asked to try to explain it. I guess you have to understand the mania and melancholy of bipolar first.
Mania is…. pink. It’s a bubblegum, cotton candy, super intense pink, and it warms you up from the very core of you until it reaches the tips of your fingers and you’re charging with electricity. It’s like you’re flying over everything and nothing matters at all. You can go...
Anxiety
wont-breakdown-tonight:
Hands shake
Body shakes
Deep breath
Heart pounds
Drink more
Deep breath
No eye contact
No speaking
No thinking, just more deep breathing
What if I don’t take a breath?
The anxiety has already taken over my brain
thisdeafening-silence:
and so begins the over analyzing the stomach knots the compulsive phone checking the need of being accepted and the fear of not ever being good enough.
VB
chino-cuomo-cobain-corgan:
The worst place a depressed person can be in is alone with their own thoughts.
i have the worst anxiety over the stupidest...
I'm afraid to live. I wake up every morning,...
INFP Personality
renamok:
INFPs are sensitive, caring, creative, private, smart and original. Their actions are driven by their value system, and they have a hard time doing things they don’t feel right about. They usually have some kind of artistic or writing interest and usually have a lot of talent for that. They do the best work when they work slowly at their own pace on their own projects.
They take...
“INFPs have the tendency to have an idealistic and romantic view of relationships...”
– themindbehind.net (via i-am-infp)
Was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder.
whileyouresleeping:
I never understood how people could really let anxiety, stress, or depression just basically ruin them. I can honestly say that I now fully understand exactly what they meant. Living with Generalized Anxiety Disorder is like living in Hell. You get so panicked for a period of time; shortness of breath, heart beating through your chest, the feeling like an elephant is sitting...
superyuui:
I’m nervous.
To me, nervous is nauseous and dizzy and that sharp ache in my fingers and toes, a weightlessness in my stomach and a tight pain in my heart as it pulses fast and strong in that dip under my jaw.
To me, nervous is sometimes a prelude to more: to panic that is white-hot and shivering and suffocating and too much.
Sometimes I am lucky and the nervousness is just...
it's sad how much this rings true with me (but it...
missaissa:
In broad terms I would say an emotionally abusive mother is a mother who uses her son or daughter in an attempt to fill her own unmet emotional needs. This is similar to defining sexual abuse as someone who uses another person in order to fill their own sexual needs.
An emotionally abusive mother is a mother who uses her son or...
consequences - twitchy
abuse-looks-like-this:
One of the consequences of being a survivor of child abuse is that being around people who are fighting or having some kind of personal tension between them makes me nearly physically ill.
For example, one of my friends and her sister get on each others nerves on occasion. They love each a lot, but after a few days together, they start to get tense with each other. And it...
Disassociation.
mytherapyexperience:
I’ve always believed to be in control of myself so much that when I realize that the way I was thinking at a particular time was due to my emotions and wasn’t a true perspective, I become a bit shocked at it. I think very deeply sometimes and I do become obsessive. I get obsessive episodes and they coincide with my need to gain a sense of contentment, of which, I’ve never...
How much longer do I have to live?
Just let me fucking die already...
Public Service Announcement:
queerveganfeminist:
People need to at least try to understand that people who struggle with “mental illness,” addiction, and/or suicidal ideation are not inherently worse, weaker, or less appreciative than their peers who do not. Some of us (surpise!) have a genetic predisposition to these things and/or have gone through some pretty heavy stuff. Dealing with these things can be pretty shitty....
Trigger Warning: Living with PTSD
notafraidofruins:
There’s a game that I play every day. All day long. I bet you want to know the rules. I mean, every day, after all.
The rules are really similar to the rules of walking through a mine field. “Don’t trigger anything.” There are a lot of ways to lose. You start by rolling the die. If you roll low, that’s good! You start off the day without nightmares. If you roll high, then...
myhelplesscries:
I wish I could just walk out of this house with my head held high. I want to be able to talk to people I don’t know. It would really be nice if I could have a conversation with someone new. I can’t even talk to people I’ve known my whole life without wanting to just turn around and run the other way. I just can’t talk to people without running out of things to say and making...
Putting my thoughts into words should not be this...
alleinsein:
I feel like im falling deeper and deeper into this darkness. I was on an ok path for a while, and now it feels like I’ve slipped, and I’m worse off.
Everything is my fault.
sc1entist:
I just don’t feel like being alive anymore most of the time.
battle-the-sad:
Augh. I hate everthing. Help. I am drowning in anxiety. I am panicking.
I’m losing it.
0hhaiithur-eveehh:
Having suicidal dreams again and waking up crying while thinking i’m dead..
I know i’m like really depressed at the moment, i didn’t know that i’m that depressed..
I DO NOT KNOW how I fucking feel right now.
therealuglyme:
Why is that so hard to understand?
tearmyheart-open:
I go through so many emotions in one day. Its completely exhausting.